Table of Contents
Foreword ix
Preface xi
Acknowledgments xvii
Introduction: Something's Happening Here 1
Breakdown, Ordinary Recovery, and Autumn Prayers 5
Coming Home 17
Off the Cushion and Out the Door 24
My Liver, My Mind, My Self 29
Mindfulness 34
Psychedelic Cheeseburgers and Shimmering Pines 40
Making Stew 50
Stepping Off the Hundred-Foot Pole 53
Breathing Room 62
Rage at the Short Hills Mall 63
How to Build a Cathedral 70
Breathing Room 77
Rapture 78
God's Will 82
... And the Power to Carry That Out 87
Blood in the Steel 91
I May Not Be Much, but I'm All I Ever Think About 96
Breathing Room 99
Keep Coming Back 100
How to Wash Dishes 105
Already Broken 109
Lenny and the Three Stooges 120
Breathing Room 126
Get (It) Together 127
Breathing Room 132
The Healing Buddha 133
Afterword 142
Resources 145
