Table of Contents
Foreword xiii
Acknowledgments xvi
Part 1 Childhood
1 Raised by Wolves 3
2 Ancestors and Guides 13
3 Grammy Brown 21
4 The Witch in the Kitchen 26
5 Through the Looking Glass 31
6 Lucid Dreaming 35
7 Death Surrounds Me 39
8 What Lurks in the Dark 43
9 How Old Am I? 49
Part 2 Darkness and Light
10 When My Father Found God 53
11 Baptism 56
12 Eleven Pounds in Eleven Days 59
13 The White Witch 63
14 Lessons of the Water 66
15 The Dead Zone 73
16 Body Dowsing 75
17 Grammy Brown Is Dead 78
Part 3 Fate Intervenes
18 Disordered Thoughts 84
19 Mad at God 91
20 Vermont 99
21 Stopping Time 104
22 Little Gold Bag 111
23 Friend of my Soul 115
24 Meeting My Future 119
25 It's in the Cards 123
Part 4 Foundations of Home
26 Motherhood and Awakening My Gifts 127
27 Kaolin, My Trigger for Growth 131
28 Visits from the Dead 136
29 Manifesting Home 143
30 Kinetic Force 149
31 I'm Normal 154
32 Touched by Spirit 160
33 The White-Haired Man 164
Part 5 November Incident-Part 1
34 The Persistence of Spirit 175
35 Adam 180
36 Opening to Spirit 185
37 Brillo Pads and Fire Hoses 190
38 Joe the Shaman 194
39 Remembering Egypt 198
40 Finding My Voice 204
41 Kundalini Rising 210
42 No Sleep for Days 216
Part 6 The November Incident-Part 2
43 Visiting My Father 223
44 Boxed up and Manic 228
45 Backyard Communication 233
46 Christmas with the Spirits 238
47 Scaring My Daughter 242
48 Gifts from the Earth 246
49 Possessed 249
50 House Call 255
51 Turn down the Volume 257
Part 7 The Voice of Spirit
52 The Long Road to Closure 263
53 The Language of Spirit 267
54 Psychic Amnesia 271
55 Spirit GPS 276
56 Phone Calls from the Dead 278
57 Family Reunion Guest 280
Part 8 High Cliffs and Deep Water
58 Jump Girl 287
59 Guided by Fate 290
60 Working with the Gods 293
61 Queen of Pentacles 296
62 Honoring Self 298
About the Author 301